Obsessed

I see him on television, dancing and singing, his motions so fluid, his voice so pleasant to the ears. His characteristics attract me. He's like a cool shower on a sunny day; a person of vigor and energy. A magnetic personality. I feel like toward him. I wish to talk to him like I would to a friend. He makes me feel like we're best buds, when I've never even stood ten feet in front of him. He makes me feel special just by doing what he does -- entertain.

He's so likable. I wonder what made him the way he is. I wish I could read his autobiography published two years ago.

My feelings near fantasy. Because I am aware that we could never be part of each other's lives. Hmm, but who am I to say that? I have my fears, that he expects a lot from people he meets. We could be living in two different worlds, it's possible we won't even like each other if or when we meet. That's enough for me to want to live apart from him. I will contradict myself and say, I think I'm mistaking him for a person who don't relate well with other people in real life. I think he does, but so many things take up so much of his time, that he may not have enough time to meet new people.

This desire to make contact with him is so powerful, I am beginning to wonder if it's good. I can already imagine what is going to happen. Me, awestruck, starstruck, grinning like a fool, eyes shining and big enough to alarm anybody, looking at him like one would view the glorious earth from space. Him, calm, readying himself to act like a good celebrity would to his number one fan, showing only the side of him that made him become the content of the minds and hearts of numerous girls and to be emulated by gents in the nation. Hi, I'm 'damean', I'm a fan of yours. *grin* Him: *Big grin* Hello! Nice to meet you, damean. And he would say and do things that would make me laugh and like him even more.

(I'm quite sure he would have no trouble in the pick-up department.)

He's a dream. Period. A dream built on illusions. Because we admire people on T.V., because we seldom see the bad in them, if not, at all. We always see the glitter, not the sweat and the work and the sleepless nights. They're trained to be admired by millions of people. That's how they will earn their wages more. A life in showbiz is a life on its own. It's separate from their reality. Because in real life, they're not perfect. On cam, they strive to be perfect, they should. Off cam, they're people like you and me, but they're worth admiring for for the work they put in their craft.

They woo their audience to an extent that the audience falls for them. We all want to be entertained, we're like little children who laughs at something delightful in their eyes. We wish to be entertained. Aside from that, we try to emulate them because they seem to have everything we wish for in our lives. They seem to be who we want to be.

I wonder if they have insecurities, I wonder if they have their fears, I wonder if they have their disappointments. Then I realize, they won't have reached the top without going through what we go through every day. What makes them different is they are out there getting the job done. They don't wallow in frustrations and don't dwell on disappointments. They move forward.

The entertainment industry has gone from acrobats in the court of kings to actors being idolized by the millions. They deserve a bit of respect. Although they allow a part of their personal lives to be interfered by others, they too, need their privacy and space. To distance oneself from them is a sign of respect for them. Admiration and adoration is best shown through respect and honor.