I will talk yet again about a woman. She is someone who is puzzled herself by her own behavior and thought patterns. She came across her old blogs and was surprised by what she wrote in these blogs. She seemed like a different person, she seemed composed and comfortable in her own skin. She was able to speak eloquently about her observations, and able to bear in mind to be careful as it is a public blog. She had a lot of class that now she felt had left her. She seemed pure and unaffected by the harsh realities of life. It's like she lived in a different world. Isolation, that's probably the "culprit". And yes, it is true.
I wonder now, how bittersweet life is, how safe you'd feel at one moment, and the next experience horrible and wronged. I can pretend life is a beach, but so much has happened already, and I can't believe in that anymore. People have changed. No matter if they experienced one event at two different time periods, I am sure they would have been affected and reacted differently. There is less concern for formality, class, maturity and ethics. I believed back then, that these things existed. Now, several years later, things changed. I'm not the same person as that person who seemed to believe in them, and like someone who lived in a penthouse in New York City, sophisticated and put together, and I don't believe more people cared about character. At present, I perceive more people care about money, lavish lifestyles, and fame no matter if they step on people as they do it. If you behave nicely people would think you want to ask for a favor. If you behave decently at all times, people try to find something wrong about you. Maturity these days is equated to being a fighter, a survivor, someone who is not afraid to hurt others or themselves as long as they and their family is protected. Ethics is not important anymore. In fact, even one professional I have contact with recommended one to cheat where if you followed the advice would get you in jail.
It is easy to say that a person can exist in this world feeling safe, but as experiences flow in that person's life, the same person will feel like happiness is not something that lasts. In fact, these days, you would need to work at it in order to achieve happiness. It's an achievement now. It's not easy to experience anymore.
I wonder now, how bittersweet life is, how safe you'd feel at one moment, and the next experience horrible and wronged. I can pretend life is a beach, but so much has happened already, and I can't believe in that anymore. People have changed. No matter if they experienced one event at two different time periods, I am sure they would have been affected and reacted differently. There is less concern for formality, class, maturity and ethics. I believed back then, that these things existed. Now, several years later, things changed. I'm not the same person as that person who seemed to believe in them, and like someone who lived in a penthouse in New York City, sophisticated and put together, and I don't believe more people cared about character. At present, I perceive more people care about money, lavish lifestyles, and fame no matter if they step on people as they do it. If you behave nicely people would think you want to ask for a favor. If you behave decently at all times, people try to find something wrong about you. Maturity these days is equated to being a fighter, a survivor, someone who is not afraid to hurt others or themselves as long as they and their family is protected. Ethics is not important anymore. In fact, even one professional I have contact with recommended one to cheat where if you followed the advice would get you in jail.
It is easy to say that a person can exist in this world feeling safe, but as experiences flow in that person's life, the same person will feel like happiness is not something that lasts. In fact, these days, you would need to work at it in order to achieve happiness. It's an achievement now. It's not easy to experience anymore.
